Build a castle in a world of make believe,  Where my heart never bleeds.    Wrap me in a summer breeze,  Wind me up in strings.     Sew up the wounds No one can see.    Build me a lighthouse by the sea,    So I can see the danger ahead of me.      Keep the light shining down on me,   As all the waves try to crash against me.     Here I am to be,   To be is to see,  See me.    For this is all incomplete,  So I lay me down to sleep,    I pray the Lord my soul to keep. I am a very romantic woman,  Never afraid of expressing my emotions and desires.      Some of my favorite things to do is read,   have dinner out, watch T.V.   play with my dog and go to Movies.   One of my dreams is to one day  find the man of my dreams,  someone who is tender, caring, gentle, unafraid of expressing his love in public,  basically my soulmate.   I love to Belly Dance,  Do Gymnastics, Ice Skating, Act and Model.    As you can see in the Galleries,  I used to do alot of Gymnastics.   I still do dance recitals.   I used to model when i was younger, also did some acting.   But due to a tragedy,  I decided to dedicate myself to writing and my graphic design.     My beliefs are quite controversial.   I believe in God, but i am also learning about the old religions and beliefs.      It is very important for me to learn as much as i can about everything in the world.   Right now i am learning as much as i can about the Celtic/Caledonii tradition which is based on the old Scottish religion of worshiping the Goddess.  As in The movie **Mists of Avalon**     It is an early Medieval Era tradition filled with wonderful knowledge of Nature and the belief of the 3x3 rule.   Which expresses that whatever you do is returned to you 3 times.  It is a belief filled with old folklore and myth. I am extremely curious, very old fashioned and romantic,  Sensitive,  cuddly,  motherly and above all faithful.   As you know I adore my dog *Taffy Ange*  who is my faithful and loving companion in life.     I love animals but i am violently allergic to Cats.    I love to travel and adore Castles.  Specially the Scottish, English and French castles.   One of my favorites is Eilean Donan, which is located in the highlands of Scotland.   ( On a Crannog just across from the Isle of Skye. ) I am single,  althought I am in a special relationship with a wonderful man,    He is an amazingly Romantic, caring, funny and gentle individual who i care very much about and hope of soon starting a family with.   He is a very gentle soul,  filled with love, tenderness and a special kind of old fashioned romance that is missing from modern relationships.    This man has filled my life with joy,  sweet memories and a lifetime of love that i hope to be worthy of. I have always dreamed of having a man who will love me forever.    A man who will look past the physical and see the soul inside and accept me for who i am and not for what I look like.    I have plans to move, not yet sure if it will be the U.S. or Canada,   but i might change those plans, depends if i publish my first book soon or not and also if my relationship with my beloved Maxx grows into a full fledged marriage.         My Beloved. It has always been my dream to live in Montreal, Quebec, Canada.     either there or live in a small town called Dornie in the highlands of Scotland.  this town has the magnificent view of the Isle of Skye. A dream i've had for a long time has been to have  2 boys and 3 girls,  to reside in a nice country home filled with love and joy which i've had little of in my life.  With a man who is loving, gentle and adoring of his children,  who will teach them about life, history and to love their historical roots. Another of my dreams is to have my books published and loved.    My styles in stories are varied,  but normally they are set in Medieval times.      I love to do role play games, specially Vampire;  The Masquerade.     It helps me keep my mind agile.    I work at home and I rarely go out except with my friends or God Children.    Eilean Donan,  Highlands of Scotland   Caerlaverock Castle,   Scotland  Bodiam Castle,  Scotland    Edinburgh Castle,  Scotland   Chenonceau Castle,   France    Mont St. Michel,  France.  Carcasonne, France Some North American Castles    Chateau Frontenac,  Quebec City.   Canada      Casa Loma,   Toronto, Ontario, Canada My Mussings How many pens must I drain? How many stairs must I climb? How many nights must I cry to get out from inside? How many times must I feel the slap across my face? The chill of people who won’t look at me when I stand helplessly? As many as it takes. As many as I can climb. As many as the rain drops that fall with my tears on the sidewalk. How many want to believe in someone? In anything But choose to not believe at all ‘Cause it’s safer not to be too close ‘Cause when you’re close, chances are you’ll fall Close your eyes when you’re at the edge Closer to the ledge I love my life Flying, jumping, falling Faith is all I have Falling, landing empty handed but with a richer soul Your eyes, your lips, your conversation Humanity’s mere beauty is more entertainment than any Hollywood flick You meet my mind halfway I look at you and dare you to fly off the cliff With me, faith is all you’ll have But you’ll really be alive this way Really exist In some form of depth Or choose every moment to sta Feet planted on the ground Safe and sound You live in a box Locked Wake up Shake the chains The rules exist to keep you marching in line Too afraid to fly To live To exist in a way that is more than a body – a zombie Eat, eat Take, take Grow fatter Wealthy, starving Starving inside That’s why you grow wider Narrow mind In your box Boxed mind outside the box Outside the box Jump out Fly with faith Fly away It’s easy, baby You just have to open your heart So these words are cruel Bite me Stop me Erase me I’ve been crushed Been raped Been destroyed No one can kill the soul Want to see or to believe There is hope for humanity Attempting to see Beauty in broken dreams So difficult every day To see past the evil That hangs like sullen songs Sung all night long by beggars Heartache and forgotten dreams Grasping on to the beauty Gasping like it is your last breath Hanging by a thread Afraid to fall to your death Craving to see beauty The goodness in humanity Or to believe in something Sullen eyes, sullen lies Sullen night, sullen child Grasping or gasping Reaching out Waiting to shout Let me see the other side The other life ‘Cause I’ve seen the rain Where is the sun? Come on, come back Fill the shadows With rays of hope Like babies We want to be free From what we care not to see Believe ‘Cause only hope can set us free Only faith can rescue The beauty in humanity So little light To touch the world To feed the hungry To fix the sick Pretend that it is all okay Smile and say it’s fine Choose to wine and dine Say it all here Too near to call you mine Behind the caravan of past pleasure The faithful follow and endure I only want to feel the fire Fill the pain with desire Only the faithful will remain All the liars burn the same Down the seas of empty things On their hands and knees Begging for more Taking to please To fill the cup with holes in the side The water leaks out with your insides Follow your leader Choose your God ‘Cant fill your eyes with lies So now you say I’ll fall But I’ll fly under the shadows Above the seas Into the love that will release me I can’t fall So I’ll see ‘Cause only the truth will set me free To know no life in itself is hell of one degree. Lying to those who know, but dismiss, perfection to a "t". To hate caring, pain so deep, forget about living life, Looking into one's eyes, splits clean like a knife. Tongue trained on one thought, and that one only, Pain washes over, for the man who's spirit dies so lonely. Loneliness is hell alone, Taunts of life lost, crack like a bone, A bone bore dry with betrayal and stress, Brain with soul splatter dead, only to confess... Bright are the lies, the hearts loved and lost. Soul, heart, life, love, happiness: Dead with the cost. All the hurt, brought light, now I can see. For no life in itself is hell of one degree. I saw a fallen rose today, It's petals dark and withered. It reminded me of myself, At the thought I doth shivered.